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History Repeating Itself or a Mental Breakdown Pattern?

Back in January of this year, 2021, I wrote a blog about Artists going into a hiatus state. I believe I was in that state when writing that particular one Blog. I just didn’t know I’d be in that hiatus state for nearly 8 months and counting. My last painting was in November 2020. Not because of a burn out from producing many paintings, which I call my Covid19 production line. Like many Artists I know through social media, have done very much the same during Covid. My hiatus started from something far much to familiar to me.

A lot of my time off from painting and creating out of the box Canvas paintings was and still is due to illness. Although I’m not quite sure how much of my time off was actually related to being ill? I say that because I had a lot to think about and a lot of emotional controlling to grasp and conquer. I’ve went through many challenges within these past 8 months. Lots of mental setbacks as well as lots of physical setbacks. Sure I was under much stress and I’m sure stress played its hand as well in all my chaos. After all, doesn’t stress play its dirty hand in all our lives?

I’ve had my hiatus states many times as many of you reading this have and can very much relate. I’ve took notice, much notice this time around of my hiatus state. My last painting as I have mentioned earlier, was in November of 2020. Not only was many stressors setting me back, like the physical pain, mental stress, negative people in my life, drama within social media, my move to a new home, all which only played its role to add to my hiatus but didn’t impact it so much as to take 8 months off from painting as well as giving me no more desire to keep up with my website and online store front, although I feel I let a lot of negativity from people got to me with that one. When you’re vulnerable to fake people, they prey on getting in your head. I’m not making excuses or placing blame on anyone but myself.

I’ve been taking notice on my hiatus stages and it really scares me and puts many thoughts of wondering in me. At first I really thought History was repeating itself again and again and again? No history just can not keep repeating itself at exactly the same season after season and timeline after timeline. Its not history repeating itself, its a pattern. A hiatus pattern that shuts down my mind, my desire, my passion, my love for creating. I ask the question so many times, Why? It scares me that if I haven’t found that answer after the 4 years of a pattern entering my life, I’ll never find the answer. Did I mentally block out something so bad, so devastating happening to me in the Fall Season that it shuts me down like clicking a light switch?

It was only within the past few months that I took myself off of Social Media. No Facebook, No Instagram and No Twitter. It was only this past month I slowly came back with a post or two on Twitter and that was to put in a complaint against a service provider for interrupting a scheduled PPV Wrestling event. I have to truly admit, I didn’t miss Social Media at all, with the exception of posting my artwork and interacting with fellow artists and my online friends.

Yesterday morning I was slapped, punched and kicked. I was given a Ass whooping by none other then, yup you guessed it, myself. The Artist in me came back. All my fellow artist brothers and sisters know what that means. To all whom are not in the creative field, that means a wake up call. It means the hiatus drought is over. Only and I mean only can you truly come back to creating is when you get your ass kicking wake up call. Artists, I know you will fully agree with me on that.

Breaking The Chains That Bind Me

Perhaps now I can break these chains that bind me.

Yesterday, I reactivated my Social Media accounts, all my art accounts and accounts associated with my art. I reactivated my website and online store. I took out my easel and art supplies and my Canvases. I’m ready and eager to fall back in love with my passion, my true love, my artwork. I’m excited to bring new paintings to my website and my Social Media. I’m excited to communicate with all of you again, my friends and my family. I’m happy to see you still following my Social Media accounts and this account as well. I appreciate each and everyone of you for keeping the support going for me even though I’ve been gone for so long. I thank you, I thank you all so much.

As I mentioned, my website is back up and to stay up and running! If you care to sign up with just your email to receive Newsletters, special announcements, live events and much more, please do so. To all of you that had previously signed up, I thank you and there is no need to sign up again. If you was signed up and haven’t been receiving any past Newsletters, please sign up again as you may have gotten dropped unintentionally from the list. To everyone that received the last Newsletter sent with my announcement of temporarily closing my website, I want you to know, it is now back open and getting ready for a RE-GRAND OPENING!

I’ll be sending out up and coming details and the expected date of the Re-Grand Opening as well as my next live Facebook and Instagram online event in the very next Monthly Newsletter, so please sign up on my website to receive your monthly newsletter. All it takes is a valid email address to sign up and rest assure, you will never receive spam or group emails from Customart2imagine. You can sign up at Www.Customart2imagine.com

I thank you for your time in reading this Blog and hoping you read many more to come! God Bless

Sincerely,

David

Customart2imagine

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